![]() ![]() We had tried to bombard our problems with it instead of attempting to bring it into agreement with God’s intention for us. Our whole trouble had been the misuse of willpower. To all of us, this was a most wonderful revelation. It is when we try to make our will conform with God’s that we begin to use it rightly. There was no such thing as personal conquest of the alcoholic compulsion by the unaided will. Then we had been told that so far as alcohol was concerned, self-confidence was no good whatever in fact, it was a total liability. When first challenged to admit defeat, most of us revolted. I pray that I may trust God and keep preparing myself for a better life. ![]() And much toil and activity could not have accomplished the journey so soon. If I wait patiently, preparing myself always, I will be some day at the place where I would be. So many people have marred their work and hindered the growth of their spiritual lives by too much activity. All motion is more easy than calm waiting, and yet I must wait until God shows me His will. There is almost no work in life so hard as waiting. Have I found that when I keep sober, everything goes well for me? We learn how nice it is to get along well with our family at home, how nice it is to do our work well at the office, how nice it is to try to help others. for a while, we learn that a sober life can really be enjoyed. So we had to stop drinking on faith, on faith that someday we really would want something else more than drinking. When we first came into A.A., we couldn’t imagine wanting anything else so much or more than drinking. If we’re going to stay sober, we’ve got to learn to want something else more than we want to drink. I frequently ask God to help me understand how I separate myself from Him. First, however, I must be willing to acknowledge my fears and understand their source and power over me. God provides the path back to Him and to His gift of security and comfort. I have never found security and happiness through self-will, and the only result is a life of fear and discontent. When I ignore my association with Him I face the world and my alcoholism alone and must depend on self-reliance. Wasn’t it because self-reliance failed us?”Īll of my character defects separate me from God’s will. If that trust is broken, I am able to determine how to handle it in an adult manner with the help of my fellow travelers.“We asked ourselves why we had them. On this day I choose to associate with those I can trust. Equally, or perhaps more important, we can trust ourselves to continue to work on our recovery. We affirm that we, too, can be trusted by others. When we think of the people around us, we now ask ourselves "Can I tell them my deepest fears and insecurities and feel safe that they won't be used against me?" "Can I be sure they accept me and all of my flaws, or do I have to undergo a transformation in order to fit their ideal?" "If life brings financial difficulties, health problems, or other changes, will they stick around?"Īs we grow stronger in our ACA program, we learn that we are healthy enough to ask the right questions, but also trust that we will be okay, even if our trust is violated. Paradoxically, we were actually often drawn to people who could not be trusted. ![]() 42Īs children, most of us didn't learn trust in our families of origin, so we approached adulthood not trusting anyone. "Do I trust the person I am with?" BRB p.
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